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R: Have you ever had sex? There are all kinds of sex.
Me (thinking): OMG. Do you think I’m 5??? Yes, I know there are different types of sex. LOL. I just don’t care about any of them.
My stress Monday through Wednesday was out of control. My heart rate was crazy high. But, I was productive enough at my day job. Not every day, but I did what I needed to do by the end of the week (on Saturday). I didn’t do it perfectly. I made a mistake. I can’t even be human at this job.
And people want to know why I’m burned out? Everyone is stressed at work. I had no idea it was so bad until we had a meeting without the manager last week.
One person called the manager. She was hysterically crying and said she wanted to quit! I have called HR to ask about quitting, but I would be scared to say that to my manager. So, I’m not the only one. Another person says she is so stressed that she barely has hair at the end of the day. She is so scared of making an error.
Does this sound like a good working environment? I knew people were stressed, but I didn’t realize it was this bad. It’s sort of nice to know that I’m not the only one. But this doesn’t solve my burnout, hypertension, memory problems, cognitive issues, and gastroparesis. I might be sick for the rest of my life because of this stupid job. I’m not planning to be there after March 2023, but will I ever be “normal” again? Burnout can last a long time.
So overall, this week kind of sucked. All my food spoiled—about $100 worth of food: I was stocking up. I don’t eat $100 worth of food a month. Now that’s gone. So I have to start all over again. I do have a “new” fridge. It’s ugly (LOL), but it works.
I’m going grocery shopping on April 8. I have that day off. I hope there is no required OT. PLEASE. I need the money, but I also need a break. I am not doing OT for the next two weeks (unless mandatory). I need a break.
I have mowed the lawn once with the mower. The most significant issue is the sensitivity of the blade. I didn’t realize how many rocks and stones were in the yard. I think the neighbor put rocks up against my fence. I have no idea why. But I’m going to move as many rocks as I can to mow more of the lawn.
The other issue is that the battery needs to be kept cool. The battery is in the mower, so once it’s gone, it’s gone. I don’t have air conditioner. Um, problem. I might get one window AC. It depends on how much money I have and how hot it gets. I know it gets really hot here, but I’m used to it being about 115 degrees (inside) in the attic. I’m not in the attic now, so I’m guessing I will be able to tolerate it, but what about the mower?
I would recommend the mower to people with regular grass. No rocks. It only cuts 25-30 minutes on a four-hour charge, so a small yard is best. And a cool place to keep the mower is needed.
I worked 3 hours of voluntary overtime this morning. I’m tired, but I need the money. I’m going to eat lunch and take my dog to the park. I have business work to do, but I’m going to stop at 8 or 8:30 PM tonight. Duke is playing North Carolina. I wouldn’t usually watch a basketball game starting that late, but it is Saturday. And I know people will spoil it, so I feel like I have to watch it live, or I won’t be able to use my phone for anything!
I’m rooting for Duke. I love Coach K. I’m going to miss him.
A lot has been going on, but I have to go for now.
This Week I…
Music of the week: Maren Morris, Ingrid Michaelson, Linkin Park, Lisa Stansfield, Maria Mena, Robyn, Sara Bareilles, Taylor Swift
TV of the Week: Survivor, Couples Therapy
Movie of the Week: I watched Deep Water last Friday night. I did not work or multitask at all! It was a real break. Back to the movie: I give it 4 stars out of 5. I did say OMG a few times. If you like Ben Affleck and suspense/thrillers, you will like this movie.
Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Truth & Justice, Dare to Lead, True Consequences
Books of the Week: I haven’t been tracking all the books from the last two weeks. I finished The Silent Patient by Alex Michaelides. This book is a slow, suspenseful book. If you like Hitchcock movies, you’ll like this book. I renewed this book from the library three times. Rating: 4 stars
I also finished At Any Cost: A Father’s Betrayal, a Wife’s Murder, and a Ten-Year War for Justice by Rebecca Rosenberg. True crime. Good book. A reminder to never get married (unless it’s for the tax cut or health insurance). Some stuff could have been left out. 4 stars. It’s hard to find good true crime, so I would recommend all decent true crime books.
I think I finished one more audiobook, but I need to look it up.
Goal for Next Week: Lower stress/heart rate. Try to take one whole day off. That would be amazing!
Weekend Plans: I’m going back to my hometown tomorrow. It’s only a 35-minute drive, but I hate the drive. It’s boring, and it takes too much gas. So I will split work between today and tomorrow. I might plan for April and May. I can’t plan the whole quarter. I never know what’s going to happen. I don’t control my time, so how can I plan anything??? So annoying. I would like April to be all about my online course. I have 2,300 words written. It needs to be organized, and if I’m going to do slides (UGH!), I have a lot of work to do.
I like being creative and creating slides, but it’s time-consuming. Recording is even more time-consuming. I hate that (because of my voice) more than anything. I think I’m going to practice recording next week. I need to know if it’s going to work. Why waste time writing this course if I’m not going to be able to record. Unfortunately, videos are necessary for this topic. Otherwise, I would just create an e-book and call it a day.
Have a lovely weekend. Thanks for reading! 💟