Beginning to realize that underthinking is a much bigger problem than overthinking, but that’s just my opinion. So, it means nothing. Just wish I didn’t have to deal with so much underthinking.  Unfortunately, everyone deals with the results. 

Heart problems. Kinda. Just a little strain when I’m around people. But fine or within normal limits while I’m at home. (Well, my heart rate can soar while working from home due to frustration, but it’s nothing like the 143 heart rate I have in public.) Had my first ECG with other things coming soon. I could delay it, but I’m not always going to have health insurance, so I’d rather get it done now. I doubt I have insurance in a year, but this is America. Anything is possible, heh.

But hey, sign me up for jury duty. Thanks, world!  But I really don’t care about that. I’m a product (not a human) of my environment. Sleep issues, gastro issues. Memory issues. AND MORE.  People either get it or they don’t. I don’t waste time on explaining things to people who refuse or can’t understand them.

I ran into the worst journal prompt ever. I see it way too often. Well, it’s really not a bad question. My answer is bad because it reflects my whole life. Question: What would you tell your 15-year-old self? STOP EXPLAINING THINGS TO PEOPLE. They either can’t understand or don’t want to understand. Most people probably fall into group #1. (Depends on the topic. Is it making a connection? A new concept, etc.) So what’s the point? 

Wish I could shout this to others. But some of them get it. People can’t understand, so what do they do?  They reframe things in terms of capitalism and productivity.  But you don’t have to play the game. If you don’t want to be seen as a productive robot (or slave), don’t do the reframing stuff. 

I would rather accept people as they are in the moment than have them see me only in terms of productivity. They don’t care. But YMMV. By the way, for many, productivity (at speed)  doesn’t last forever.  And then what? What’s the reframe then??  Don’t underthink it! Don’t try to fit in too much.

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What I Did This Week

Music of the Week

Books of the Week

Finished reading these books over the last 2 weeks:

• The New Husband by Brian R. O’Rourke (fiction) – My rating: ★★★★ I really enjoyed this book. It’s the best of the 3 listed here. I think this is the second O’Rourke book I’ve read. It was a fun read. A page turning, thriller. Going to read all of his books this year. I’m assuming he doesn’t have 20 books.
  
• The Invite by A.J. McDine (fiction) – My rating: ★★★★ (maybe should be 3.75)This is another book that started off well but fell a little at the end. Boring 20% at the end. It must be hard to end a book. This happens so often. Anyway, from my notes: These women are vicious. They don’t seem like friends.
  
• All the Pretty People by Barbara Freethy (fiction) – My rating: ★★★ (more like 2.5 stars) It was good until soap opera stuff started happening about 60% through. Once in a book is not a big deal. It’s a fiction book. But it kept happening to explain major plot points. One dramatic, far-fetched thing after another. Um. No. The 1st half is realistic. The rest was Days of Our Lives. I didn’t sign up for this. Maybe this should be considered Soap Opera Fiction? That way, I know to avoid it. It doesn’t fit under fantasy, so…Deep thoughts from my notes: Title doesn’t match the book. I hate it.

Quote of the Week

We’ve probably spent years
being corrected, misunderstood,
teased, punished, or subtly
trained to mistrust our own
signals.

Hypervigilance & Neurodivergence
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