If they want it clear, give them AI. They say they hate it, but I know better. Been there. Lived in their world. They prefer easy and fast. I can be fast but rarely easy. 

They say they like people. Lol. Who? Are they supporting these “people” in any way? It’s all a performance. They don’t care about people…at all. Just look around.

They want AI but will never admit it. They hate people, but will never admit it. 

Honesty is so foreign to them. But that’s not why I’m pondering their AI stances that don’t make sense. I typed out this long narrative and then gave it to ChatGPT. Not for this blog, but for possible future use for when I’ll be forced to show that I’m worthy of their crumbs. 

And I thought this could be a blog post. “If I just posted the AI version, I’d be criticized. However, if I posted my version, I’d also be criticized.” *

*IF I had a big audience. I’m not 100% delusional..yet.

People in a nutshell. This is why I don’t bother attempting to please them. I can never please them. I wish everyone who fell into this category knew this, but they will learn… probably with age. I want to tell them not to waste their energy. But I guess “impossible people pleasing” is a growing pain. 

So I’m going to post some of my version and one of ChatGPT’s versions. 

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Here’s my unedited version of “The REAL burnout or progressive physical and cognitive decline.”

The burnout started in 2020, when I began working required overtime at my full-time job and also started freelancing (before I knew OT would be required). At one point, I was working 75 to 80 hours a week. I started experiencing the effects physically in 2022. (mentally way before that). 

Prior to 2022, I rarely went to the doctor. I went once a year. 

The first physical sign was gastroparesis. I couldn’t keep any food down in mid 2022. It took months to get a DX. I got down to 99 pounds in 2022 or 2023. Around 2022, my autism and ADHD worsened to the point I couldn’t ignore either anymore. 

Here is some of the sanitized version from ChatGPT:

My problems began getting much worse in 2020, during a period when I was working required overtime at my full-time job while also freelancing, sometimes totaling 75 to 80 hours a week. Before 2022, I was already having increasing mental and cognitive difficulty, but in mid-2022, I began having serious physical problems and could not keep food down.

I was later diagnosed with gastroparesis after testing, and I lost a significant amount of weight, down to about 99 pounds. Around the same time, my attention, memory, executive functioning, and ability to handle daily demands became much worse.

I continued working because my job was remote, which allowed me to keep working while very sick in a way that would not have been possible in an in-person job. Even so, I had to give up most of my freelance work because of fatigue and problems with concentration, memory, and executive functioning.

At this point, outside of work, I do very little. I have difficulty managing normal daily activities. My functioning has become much more limited over time, and I am struggling to maintain basic needed activities outside of required work.

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I want to say I hope I don’t have to ever say any of this stuff…in this way…but it’s the way the system is set up. So another “no option”. Or I could get my health back. I can’t even laugh at that absurd thought. 

I choose reality. It might suck, but it’s better than a delusional fantasy.