Good one. Finally.
But I can’t remember when I last got excited. I have amnesia and I still can’t get disability. Ha. Oh, back to the question.
I got excited about something today. Oh, I made a sale from my online shop—a digital product. It would have been more exciting if I hadn’t thought I made two sales yesterday. But it was only one. And then today, I had another sale. So, I’m a little excited because now I really have two sales.
I’m having a “flash sale” with nine other people. I do this about two times a year, but usually, I just give stuff away for free. So, I’m glad I tried to sell something. I also gave away free stuff, and two people decided to buy something. It was very discounted—80% off. Two orders can get me almost two tacos and Taco Bell. Almost.
If I hadn’t signed up for this sale at the end of July that, I wouldn’t be working so much this week, but other people control my time. I don’t get a month’s notice for required overtime. We haven’t had required overtime in months. More than 6 months. So, I’m supposed to not schedule anything because someone decides we MIGHT have overtime? How is that rational? Or ethical If a person can’t work that much?
They would stay up until midnight to get things done. But I can’t do that. I’ve been working all day, and my brain shuts down around 7 or 8 PM. I don’t control my time or when my brain shuts down. I wanted to participate in another flash sale in November, but I can’t imagine putting in so much work for maybe $18 (if lucky). I probably won’t do another until 2025.
This is my brain on a typical Friday. But I still have to work because people pretend, they don’t see mental disabilities. It’s a whole thing that people pretend not to understand. I find this annoying because it is ruining my life. But whatever.
I can’t think but I can see as of 5 PM. Last Friday my brain and vision were gone. My eyesight will probably be gone in a couple of minutes or hours. I can feel it slipping away. I want to say I’m going to work 90 minutes tonight but not without my vision. I’m already slightly familiar with screen readers for people with low vision or no vision, but my jobs are timed based so there’s no way a screen reader would work.
No, the ADA doesn’t help with stuff like that. What the ADA does is very, very limited. People with a disability and employers know this. Only everyone else thinks it means something. To oversimplify, it means if you want to open a store or a restaurant you will probably have to have a ramp, and your door must be wide enough for a wheelchair. Some small businesses can get out of it, but I’m not the one to know about this. This is what the magical ADA is.
I can tell someone doesn’t know about the ADA if they mention the ADA. My last therapist mentioned it. BIG SIGH. I was surprised. Apparently, people with disabilities don’t go to therapy even though society makes sure our lives are a living hell. Please never mention the effing ADA that they had to pass a AS A LAW because businesses don’t care about us. At all. It has never helped me.
I only talk about this stuff because people constantly lie. If people were honest, I would be fine. Just say it.
I think I’m going to try to work this evening before I really lose my vision. My brain is not great so if I get frustrated, I will have to do more over the weekend. I would love to know what’s it like to have a weekend and be happy for a Friday. It’s been a long time.