Update: I still don’t know whether I have the house. It depends on what the appraiser says, so I should know by April 17th (tomorrow for me) in the afternoon. I started the following entry around April 10. It’s not done. But I want to post something before I feel so behind.
It has not been a good month. I feel like it kind of fell apart around the full moon (April 4). However, I have figured out why I have memory issues! But since it has been confirmed by someone with a Ph.D., I guess it means nothing. Yes, I’m being sarcastic.
The only autistic superpower I have is recognizing patterns which isn’t bad. So it’s easy for me to figure out what’s wrong with an animal but not really think about it. I thought it was intuition which I only thought was strange because how many people are only intuitive with animals….and not humans? The answer is that I don’t know their patterns unless I’m around a person a lot. But of course, I know my dog’s patterns.
At about age 7, I discovered I was allergic to oranges because of a pattern. That’ fucking brilliant, yo! A doctor wouldn’t have figured that out because being allergic to oranges is rare. It’s not really the orange. I have a histamine intolerance. The medical literature says only 1 – 3 percent of the population has it. But I’m pretty sure it is near 10%. If a person has been DX’d as ADHD as an adult with little to no symptoms as a kid, I would look into histamine intolerance and/or autism. A lot of people with autism have undiagnosed histamine intolerance. So that’s why I know it can’t be only 3% of the population.
Diagnosed with ADHD as an adult? But still not sure it’s the right DX? Look into autism and/or histamine intoleance
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So no brain tumor. No Alzheimers. Etc. The only problem is that I find it hard to “cure it.” Since I have gastroparesis and can barely afford the food I buy now, I can’t eat leftovers and gluten?? WTF? That leaves very few options for me. Plus, I’m a picky eater (autistic). I’m not worried about this as much now because I’ve been house hunting (my semi-dream house got away because the bank was too slow to approve!), and I must do something with my taxes this weekend. I will apply for an extension just to relieve the stress and overwhelm, but I will probably be done by April 18 unless I have to make many phone calls.
I’ve been journaling every day this month. I rarely do that. I usually journal 2-3 times a week unless I have a lot of time.
APRIL RECAP
April 1 – I am tired and didn’t accomplish all my tasks, but managed to do some writing for Nano and work. I am bothered by my noisy neighbor and have things to do like finishing my grocery list and mowing the lawn. Additionally, I understand why I’m good at pattern recognition, which I think is common in autistic people.
April 2 – If we learn to open our hearts, anyone, including the people who drive us crazy, can be our teacher.” – Pema Chödrön I am considering committing to organizing finances, taxes, and time management but struggling to decide. I found solace in music and had a productive day. Should I go on a trip to a cabin or buy an AC? I’m assessing my budget. Plans for the next day include working on taxes and a blog project. I wonder about the concept of success, power, and validation in my work and wondering how the 6 of Wands will show up in my life.
April 3 – I forgot my second dose of Adderall, managed to mow the lawn despite feeling tired, and did well at work. I am following the Lori Vallow trial and considering listening to audio. I will order from Thredup since I have the $20 discount and do client work for ST. The new moon on April 5th in Libra relates to money matters, possibly taxes, which reminds me I have to contact the credit company.
April 4 – (This is about another house I saw. I’ve only seen two houses. I was very close to getting this, but the BANK was slower than normal, so I didn’t get it. Now I think I may have been lucky. My dream isn’t to live in the city. I want to live in the country -rural- and have privacy).
Today has been a day. Up, down and all around. Damn.
Went to see the house in the city. I swear my mind just goes bad at night. I hope it’s not dementia. But whatever. Capitalism kills?
Anyway, I never do this. But pros and cons. I might have to add to this later.
PROs
Beautiful (no one but my dog and I will live there)
The mortgage should be lower. Hopefully under $600, but there’s no guarantee – Affordable.
Has an awesome refrigerator (but I had a nice one here that broke)
Microwave (hope it’s new)
New HVAC
Central Air
Love the lights
No neighbor on one side
Can open windows for light.
Dream shower
Small front yard
No one in the back of me (that I could see)
Can start a garden
CONS
The screen door already broke, but it seems like an easy fix. I would try to fix myself.
no driveway – park on the street
Unsure of the neighborhood – unknown
No sidewalk for a while. Where will I walk my dog?
Made in 1929 – insulation bad (but the house is small)
Selling as is, but the realtor will ensure the inspection happens, and I can back out if water is under the house, etc.
They put a new roof over the old roof. It will cost more if I have to replace it because I have to move two roofs.
More pros than cons. Not sure what this means because the cons could be deal breakers. But the fact that it has pros is awesome.
That’s it for the April recap for now. I’ve been so busy with phone calls and getting house documents, I haven’t had time to personally journal or update this blog. If I get the house, I probably won’t finish the April recap because I will be blogging about that.
So far, in April
Music of the Month: Ellie Goulding, Shania Twain, Beyonce, Sugaland, Beyonce, Boyce Avenue, The Wreckers, Grace Potter, Jewel
TV of the Month: Pretty Little Liars, Vanderpump Rules, Survivor
Podcasts of the Month: The Vanished, Pretty Lies & Alibis, Truth & Justice, Generation Why, Conviction, Histamine Intolerance, Culpupale, Astrology of the Week Ahead, Dateline
Books of the Month: When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chodron. I’ve read this book several times. Look at the title. It makes sense. I love this book. I’m planning on reading more by Pema this year.
Goals for This Month: It’s hard to plan when I don’t know whether I will move. But since I’m not moving until around Memorial Day (if I move), I can still make plans. Most of my plans are business related and cleaning up where I live now. If I don’t move, I probably will stop looking for houses for a while unless I see something I love and its price well. This market is really hard to buy in. The owners don’t want to do anything.
I can’t even think about buying an AC since I won’t need one if I move.
Weekend Plans: It’s Sunday morning. I worked most of yesterday. I might take my dog to the park. It’s going to be about 85 degrees. I have business work that has a due date, so that is my main focus for the rest of today. I’m so glad I got my taxes done on Friday. I thought it would take forever since Quickbooks wouldn’t input everything into the tax software.
Thanks for reading! Have a great week.