Bad news for me means a blog post here! Woohoo! 

Um, I don’t even want to admit what happened today. SHAME. 

Well, that went away quickly. Sigh. I resent people. One day I will not have to work so much. I wouldn’t complain if I were healthy! Well, sometimes I would. But I would be thinking about all the money I could make to pay off debt, go on a mini-vacation for my birthday, and whatever!

But I’m exhausted. My brain starts going downhill on Wednesday…even if I only work 1-2 hours in my business. So the biz IS NOT the issue. I can’t work 50 hours at my day job every week. Don’t tell anyone, but I have only worked all the hours 2 out of maybe eight weeks!! If she didn’t know I had a disability, I’m 100% sure she would say something, but I think she’s scared. What if I chose to use PTO for the OT (I have 25 hours now, but I’m off on Monday so the PTO wouldn’t last long. I would only do this if FORCED. 

I need my PTO for rest. I didn’t want to take time off in February. But guess what? I’m exhausted, and I need to go grocery shopping. I have two days off in March for a possible routine checkup. Regardless, I’m going back to my hometown that day. 

I can’t take any time off in April if I want a week off for my birthday in May. The temps are starting on Monday. They will be out of training by April, but how fast will they be? Plus, I don’t know how much work we will have. If it goes up in April, the temps won’t matter. We will have the required OT.

I don’t care what anyone suggests. If my manager says you seem to be working slowly, I will say, “Yes, working 50 hours a week makes me tired”. I won’t say it like that. 

She will have her Ph.D. soon if she doesn’t get her ass out of this LAME ass company. Why would you choose stress?? Believe it or not, all jobs are not this stressful. PH.D.!! She better leave and writes books, teach, start a business, freelance, whatever. Get the hell away from this hell space. 

Anyway, I forgot the point of this entry. I’m working on my business and coming back here every time I complete something. I got a new client, and THEY (pronouns) have agreed to coach me for six months. This is HUGE because she charges either $5K or $6K for each client. I don’t have that, so I agreed to make a trade. Yes, money would be good, BUT if their coaching matches mine, I will make more money.

My god, I wrote “she” twice. I suck at pronouns. I don’t have to use pronouns when talking to them, so I shouldn’t freak out. 

I have my memory testing results back. But I will remember to talk about that later. I had a crappy day today for no real reason. It was real to me at the time. But it was resolved by 6 PM. That is still late for me, but if I had known every day would have been fine TODAY, I wouldn’t have freaked out and gotten so stressed.

I was supposed to get my paycheck at midnight. I had 90% of my money for rent. I always pay on the last day of the month. ALWAYS. But I didn’t have the money on January 31 (yesterday). So I assumed I would get paid today (2/1/2023), and everything would be fine. 

I woke up. No paycheck. I didn’t freak out until 11 AM. My brain was probably asleep. I have the other 10% in another bank with a better saving rate. A transfer takes 2-3 days, so that doesn’t work. I asked my mom, but she needed the money back within 24 hours. I didn’t want to stress her out, so I was going to pay and pay the $35 overdraft fee. 

I got my paycheck today at 6 PM. That rarely happens. It’s almost always at night. Once, I may have gotten my check around 11 AM. The homeowner was extremely nice about it. I’ve lived here for over a year and have always been on time. 

So that’s resolved. But I feel like shit because I could barely work. I didn’t do any overtime. Sigh. Whatever. I have to go. 

This Week (and last week)

Music of the Week: Justin Timberlake, Camilla Cabello, Sam Smith, Elle King, Grace Potter, Janet Jackson, Kelly Clarkson, Joy Oladokun

TV of the week: Pretty Little Liars, Project Runway

Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Pretty Lies & Alibis, Truth & Justice, Pod Save Ameria, Generation Why, Best Laid Plans, The Piketon Massacre, Gone South, Cold Cases

Books of the Week: Finished these since I last posted:

• Friends, Lovers, and the Big Terrible Thing by Matthew Perry (★★★1/2) 3 and a half stars
• Love & Lies: A True Story of Murder in the Suburbs by Chloe Cannon ★★★★ (4 stars)
• The Perfect Family by Robyn Harding ★★★★ (4 stars)
• American Predator: The Hunt for the Most Meticulous Serial Killer of the 21st Century ★★★★ (4 stars) Maybe 4 1/2?

If I need something to write about, I may review these books.

Goals for This Week: Since I sucked at work today, I might try really hard tomorrow UNLESS a certain person nags me. I hate that shit. 🙂 Almost all of my other goals are business related. I am canceling a few business subscriptions. If I haven’t made any money from their course/product, I’m canceling them this month. Whatever day on the weekend I don’t work overtime, I’ll probably go to the park.

Weekend Plans: Well, I spoiled this. I’m off on Monday. So, working at my day job for at least 4-5 hours (not by choice), go to the park, and go grocery shopping on Monday. I need to focus on my business. Going to the park will be only a break, but sometimes I come up with great ideas when walking alone with my dog. I have to take a break, but no whole day off.

Have a great week and weekend! Thanks for reading.