Rachel Havekost’s book is available for pre-order – Write to Heal: 30 Questions to Meet Yourself, Unlock Creative Purpose, & Find the Courage to Tell Your Story. She said we could share our favorite prompt. So that is what I will do today. I’m only on day 9, so I can’t say this is my favorite, but I like this prompt. A few years ago, I would not have had an answer to this.
Day 8 – Write about a defining moment in your life
A defining moment in my life was when I realized it wasn’t me. Nothing was wrong with me. It was them (neurotypicals). I always knew I didn’t deserve to be teased. No one deserves that, but I wondered if it was me as an adult. I don’t smile that often. I’m not social. So, it’s me. But the neurotypicals need to accept us as we are. We don’t have to assimilate. It’s them with the issue. The problem. They DEMAND we be like them, or they ostracise and/or gossip about us.
And now it makes me mad when people say I have to be patient with them. Hello, you’ve done nothing but criticize and gossip about me my whole life, and you want patience??? WTF is wrong with you? What about all the shit you did to me? You ruined my life. You don’t deserve my patience.
Discovering the word ‘neurodivergent’ was powerful. I don’t have to change. If I could change (mask), I would because it makes life easier. I wish this was a happy story, but it just makes me mad at how entitled they are. Blissful. Ignorant. Typical.
I could help neurotypicals learn about neurodivergence, but I don’t think they are interested. If someone asked me one-on-one, I would try to explain it to them. Not on the spot, of course. I wouldn’t know where to begin.
Nothing is wrong with us. We interact and think differently. We aren’t bad.
If I can decide to expand on this prompt elsewhere, I will have to delete this entry. Anyway, my defining moment is slightly depressing (**gasp**), but it’s the truth.
This Week I
Music of the week: Taylor Swift, Ariana Grande, Anna Nalick, The Chicks, Demi Lovato, Miranda Lambert, Sugarland, Joy Oladokun
TV of the week: Midnight Mass, Housewives, Survivor
Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Truth & Justice, The Daily, Embedded, Gone Cold, Rabia and Ellyn Solve the Case, Book Talk, Etc., Canadian True Crime, Generation Why, True Crime Garage
Books of the Week: I finished two books since I last posted:
Off the Clock: Feel Less Busy While Getting More Done by Laura Vanderkam Personal notes: It’s the same BS again. But there are some good points, like tracking your time. I am time blind, so I should do this more, but I can’t remember to do it. I only kept reading because it did include some good things. But I didn’t find the rest helpful for people like me who have to work many hours for money. And the end is about spending time with people to have MORE time, lol. No. People exhaust me. I need my energy. No. ★★★★ (four stars)
In It Together: The Beautiful Struggle Uniting Us All by Eckhart Aurelius Hughes Personal notes: The author has a big ego. I wanted to like this book because it started off great. You are not your political party or religion. Amen! But then it goes down the regular spiritual bypassing crap. He does include great quotes in the book. I’m glad I own it so I can go back and read some parts. I just feel like he thinks this is an original book, and it isn’t. Everything in here I’ve read before EXCEPT the part where he says drug addiction and TV addiction is the same. That is rarely said. It is too all over the place to recommend this to anyone, but if I had to pick a group, I would say 18-24-year-olds struggling with their spirituality. ?? Or people who have never read a spiritual (non-religious) book. ★★★ (3 stars)
Goal for Next Week: I haven’t planned for next week yet. I’m feeling sick. I don’t know whether the berries or the pizza make me feel ill. Anyway, I have a lot of errands to run next week. I hate leaving the house. I was supposed to mow the lawn today. Ugh.
Weekend Plans: Today is Sunday. I worked for a client for about 6 hours yesterday!! I am so drained. People exhaust me. I couldn’t do this every day. I might not work anymore today. I feel bad for my dog because I know he wants to go for a walk. But he has walked for maybe 14 days straight? He can take one day off.
Have a good week! Going to relax and try not to feel guilty about not walking my dog.