had a meltdown this morning. quietly. i didn’t disturb anyone. i did take a longer coffee break than usual. i made that up by taking a short lunch.

i don’t know what’s wrong with me. besides being blamed and then vindicated for TWO mistakes. that shit takes time to research. and it had nothing to do with me. could they check before emailing me about this stuff. that is probably to much to ask. most of the errors are actually errors, i guess.

it all started with the abandonment of ‘b*tch move’ i felt rejected and left alone to rot. i know i’m projecting. the bullying and teasing. everyone dumps me when they realize i am of no use.

i won’t call ‘bitch move’ bitch move anymore. i latched onto to her like she was a mother figure when she was simply doing her job. and then when they took her away, it was like being abandoned by a mom or something. i was rejected (for life) by my sister…and my dad left when my mom decided to get a separation when i was ten. i think the emotional abuse from school is what really is the root of my problem.

until then i’ll keep crying.

adios