in college i was depressed. i didn’t know it at the time. now i have no motivation to clean…not that i like cleaning. it’s hard to explain. ever since i moved into my living room it has become a mess. the thing is, i think i know that cleaning my living room won’t make me ‘happy’.

i’m trying to find new hobbies besides reading and listening to music. i’m renting a hip hop dance/exercise dvd. i love to dance. i just can’t dance. i’m sorta excited to see if i can follow the dvd. i’ve never even tried structured dancing before. why not try at home instead of in front of people? 😉

i lack motivation. is it b/c of depression or is my work using all of my brain cells. i’m serious. yes i am sleeping a lot. when i awake (except for in the AM), i usually feel better about whatever happened that day.
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i was so bitter when the steelers won the super bowl that i turned the channel. i completely forgot ‘the office’ was going to air after the game. i loved the bbc version of ‘the office’. the us version is hit or miss. it is definitely not appointment tv for me. i just figured that the show after the super bowl had to be good.