I hate thinking about food. I just want to be able to eat what I want, which isn’t unique, I know. I went 2 days without solid foods for my most recent gastroparesis flare. I hadn’t had a bad flare in over two years!

Today I ate 8 ounces of chicken soup for breakfast, and I’m full. I probably won’t eat anything else today. Do I have to throw away my bad food? I will be too scared to eat some of it. I went 3 years without eating pizza...does that start all over again? THE HORROR.

Luckily, I don’t have that much food. So my biggest decision is what to buy in the near future. I was going to go to the grocery store tomorrow and take my dog to the park for a quick visit since it’ll be 45 degrees. But I dunno. I should have enough energy to make it. And I really don’t want to have more groceries delivered (the out-of-stock problem, plus all the tipping, etc.)

So, go to the store tomorrow to buy my dog some treats and me…soup? Maybe. I usually feel a lot weaker after a flare, but I think I did a good job of NOT forcing myself to drink plain water and drinking flavored water, and it worked out okay. I did attempt 2 ounces of plain water, and oh, the pain was so sharp and sudden. My gut is like me and doesn’t understand the point of plain water. Drop in an electrolyte or something.

I’m going to pretend like it’s the end of the month and do….

This Month

Top music:

Books I Read in December (so far)

• An Anonymous Girl by Greer Hendricks 3.75 stars
• The Boat Party by M. A. Hunter 3.5 stars
• The Beginning After by Kiersten Modglin 3.5 stars

All fiction. Bad to average fiction. lol. I’m reading a couple of nonfiction books. Unsure if I will finish any of those before the end of the month. One is 700 pages and I’ve been reading it for 3 months.