I no longer think I have to be nice to people who bully autistic people. They don’t deserve my respect OR mercy. They deserve nothing from me. Nothing good or bad. Nada. Zilch.

I’m no longer confused about who the neuro-majority are. They don’t deserve or want my allegiance.

I’m so sick and tired of their world and their rules. I can’t live by their rules.

If they can’t figure out how not to bully people who are different and won’t socially assimilate, that is a THEY problem. I can’t fix that.

I give up and it mostly feels good. Of course, I wish this wasn’t an issue to begin with. Knowing the number of autistic adults (and maybe teens) who die by suicide, makes me want to DO SOMETHING. But I know I can’t do that.

I can’t fix them. I can’t fix anyone else.

I just want to be left the fuck alone. I’m so tired of having to show restraint. That adds to burnout. But we are already tired. They do no favors. Some people break. I break. Some people really, let’s say, explode. Oops. Maybe treat people like they are human and not “a freak” (for lack of a better word)

Just because they don’t know WHY they are the problem doesn’t excuse them. They have been getting away with things for centuries. White supremacy, the patriarchy, etc.

This is the problem. They are never held accountable for anything. Now I sound like them “accountable.” I live here and some of their culture has rubbed off on me. It’s only natural. But accountable is the right word in this case. They get away with everything because they are the majority. They are the default. They are right.

Blood is on their hands, and they don’t even care. people have to live. Why do they have to live at the minority expense? Whatever they say. I’m just here to work for you and obey. Thanks for letting me stay? Can I go? Hopefully soon.

I can’t make them stop.