Today is Monday, but I had to spend 4 hours on something that usually takes 6 minutes on average. And now today feels like a Wednesday.

My energy is depleted. I wanted to work 2 hours at my part-time job, but now I’m out of it.

My new mower is coming today. Unfortunately, a mower is a must where I live now because 1.) I can’t find a reliable person to cut if even if I had money. I would probably have to offer at least $75 to guarantee a cut. 2.) I don’t want to get in trouble for tall grass on top of everything else I have to deal with.

STRESSED OUT.

No real autonomy. But I’m not strange for that. The more money a person has the more they FEEL like they have control. But no one controls everything or even 50% of their life. If they do, why are they spending time doing so much of what they don’t like? Are they into punishing themselves for no reason? Who knows.

I don’t mind mowing the yard. It’s good exercise. I hate when I feel like I don’t have time. But I will do it during lunch. Instead of my dog getting a walk, I’ll mow half of the yard. Or maybe all of it.

I wish I could have my dog outside. But he’ll bark 50% of the time. I don’t know how many people are home at 11 AM, but someone will hear him. Not that they would ever consider that when they leave their dog outside. I’m not like them and that’s okay. .

aahHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Just got a text that my mower is here. Strange my dog or I didn’t hear it. I have headphones on, but…Hmm. Gotta go check to see if it’s really here.

It’s here and much heavier than my last one. I got an electric mower because those are the only mowers I know how to put together. I could have spent at least $75 less and got a gas mower. This one is supposed to last 45 minutes on one charge. I can probably do what I need to do in 45 minutes. I’m bad at estimating time. But my point is, that I’m never going to mow the whole lawn because it’s rarely needed. I do half one time and half the next time.

The box says it’s 40% lighter. No way. Then what?? I wouldn’t be able to move it if it were 2 pounds heavier. My last mower was so easy to move. No problems at all. This mower is easily 2X heavier. Probably 45 pounds.

URGH. I see that the mower is $50 less now. ^$#@. I don’t deserve the lower price, but since I really need it, I will ask without expectation. They don’t have to do anything. Blah. Blah. But not to ask when I’m desperate???? I was going to wait. But 20% of my grass is over 1 inch. I can’t afford to be turned in these people.

My road is kind of a dead end, so the police are rarely on it. If I got turned in, it would probably be a neighbor or one of the handymen. I’m sure of it! The police have more to worry about than tall grass anyway. Only busybodies would turn me in…and maybe someone who thinks that attracts stuff like snakes.

Here’s the mower…on sale.

Currently (Or last week)

Music of the week:

1. Ariana Grande
2. Fall Out Boy
3. Saving Jane
4. Taylor Swift
5. Chris Stapleton