All this won’t make sense because I’m not including any prompts. Just my answers.

My business is so shallow. It’s not me because it’s not what I want to do. I want to travel. Have a travel blog. But not for money. But I live in a world where I have to have money. So I’m stuck again. I’m never going to be fulfilled as long as I NEED money.

 My audience needs to think I know what I’m talking about. I have a plan for that. But it’s not done. I am proud I did about 20% of the class this weekend.

I want to say that not showing up 100% in my business is my fault, but I’m exhausted and can’t do it anymore. It’s time to accept the truth. I’m burned out. I’m tired. I know others have their ideas that I no longer follow and subscribe to. I’m not going to be more for them. I can’t be.

No, my content isn’t powerful. Power isn’t a word I like. I don’t have a ton of people listening to me. So powerful? No. I don’t want to be the top dog. I don’t like the attention, and I hate pressure. Although I’m not sure, I would feel pressure if I were #1 in my field. But I know myself, so it seems likely.

Having impactful content (NOT POWERFUL) is something I can work on. As long as it doesn’t take more energy than I’m already doing. I only create about 10 blogs a year. That’s not much.

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The Present Moment 

I don’t want to see NOW. I don’t want to see the present. The present isn’t always good. It sometimes is. I could ignore the basement because it’s downstairs, but it’s still in the present moment. Just because I don’t see it or ignore it doesn’t mean that it doesn’t exist.

Random

I want to watch a movie every Friday night…except this Friday because I’m visiting my mom for 3 days. If I go there on Friday after work, I will be too exhausted to watch a movie. I think she has cable upstairs. REAL TV?? I will probably watch CSPAN. Anyway, when I get there, I will probably eat or just go straight to sleep.

I shouldn’t be going back home. Money issues. But, dude, there are always money issues. I’m choosing to ignore the basement and go back to my hometown. Assuming it doesn’t snow. I hate winter. Either way, I have next Monday (Martin Luther King Day) and Tuesday off (a personal day).

Last month, I watched a documentary on a topic I had already read a lot about – Jonestown. It was good, but it hit me more to see it than to read the book, which surprised me. I used to LOVE movies, but since I stopped going to the theater about 7 or 8 years ago, I don’t keep up with movies anymore. It’s hard to get excited about a movie in the theater, on Max, or whatever all these channels are. So I will probably stick to documentaries.