What advice would you give to your teenage self?
Don’t listen to all the people who say life will get better. They lied. They were talking about neurotypical people. I kind of knew I wasn’t like everyone else, but I thought there was a 5% chance this might be true.
Nothing else everyone said was true for me. So why should that be?
Back then, I thought something was wrong with me. But now I know the truth. I wished I hadn’t wasted time figuring out how people worked. It would have been better to learn about myself. Now I know that self-discovery is an important part of building one’s self-esteem.
I wouldn’t tell other teens that it doesn’t get better. It will probably get better if you are neurotypical or can act normal without burning out. It won’t always be perfect, but better, yes.
There are a lot of lies I used to believe. But now that I know more about neurodivergence, I see how screwed up what people say is.
Going to jump a bit into my regular blog post, AKA journal entry.
I didn’t work my day job today. I was busy, but I wasn’t depressed at all. My depression is definitely situational. I didn’t just work. I did yoga and read a little. It rained. I was grateful to take a day off from walking my dog. I only get about 2 days off a year due to the weather.
Tomorrow I will work at least 4 hours at my day job. I NEED (for money) to work six hours. And I’m probably supposed to work seven hours since it’s required but fuck them. I’m not getting sick for them AGAIN.
I’m working on an online course as a part of my business. Do I want to do that NOW? No. But I need money. So it’s either creating a course or selling journals on Amazon. Journals on Amazon are not some get-rich-quick scheme. But if I never do start, I will never make money. Making $100 monthly will buy more than 50% of my monthly food. It’s not a lot of money to most, but eating food is kind of important.
I need to know why I find creating online courses so draining. I think it’s because I have to talk. I could do an ebook, but that won’t make ENOUGH money this year. I don’t know how much I want to make in my biz because I don’t control my time. If I don’t market my business, how can I make money???
This week
Music of the Week: Miranda Lambert, Boyce Avenue, Jason Mraz, John Mayer, Shania Twain, Mariah Carey, Sugarland,
TV of the week: Pretty Little Liars, Project Runway, You
Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Pretty Lies & Alibis, Truth & Justice, This History Chicks, Generation Why, Conviction, The Trial Went Cold, Why is This Happening?, Gone South
Books of the Week: Finished these since I last posted:
- Scattered Minds by Gabor Mate ★★★★ (4 stars) I learned a lot about ADHD in kids, but if I had known it was about kids, I would not have started this book. It’s interesting, and I recommend adults read it if they DON’T have kids. I feel like most parents with children who have ADHD will get overwhelmed by this book. I like Gabor Mate, but I feel like no parent can be perfect enough to follow his tips.
I’m reading 3,000 books. Who knows what I will finish next.
Goals for Next Week: Not be depressed.
Weekend Plans: Tomorrow, I’m working and walking my dog. And I would like to take some time to plan my week. But when I have a lot to do, planning can be overwhelming. But like a coach I know would say:
I don’t have the privlege to be overwhelmed.
FM
But I am often overwhelmed. LOL. But I don’t have time for that. 🙂
Have a good week. Hope the weather is nice where you are. It’s warm for February. No complaints from me.