It’s almost noon on Sunday. I’ve been working all morning. What else is new? I usually like to blog on Sunday mornings, but I had a project I wanted to finish. 

The business has been kind of slow. But it’s only January! I wanted to make $10K this year. In 2021, I made about $8,300. Not bad for doing this part-time, but I was always working. Hmmm. I am redoing my website and still trying to figure out how I want to make money. 

Do I want to concentrate on services like I did in 2021 or create more digital products? Digital products seem like a little less work, but the cost of the products are lower, and I feel like I have to market more. Guess who hates to market themselves? I don’t mind some things, but anything involving being or talking or video makes me uncomfortable.

Speaking of that…someone asked me to do a class for their membership! I said I was shy and blah, blah. Then they responded that the course could be taped. So now, I think I’m saying YES. I’m still not 100% sure. I don’t know my rate. I have made an online course before (talk about long hours!), but I’ve never done a one-off class. I should do this. It would be for great marketing. And it might help my social skills, but I don’t know about that. That would be a miracle. 

I will probably charge between $75 and $125. I still have to do research. I know experts charge at least $400 an hour. But I don’t know how long it will take me to prepare, tape the class, etc. So it’s hard to come up with a rate if you’ve never done it before. I hope I can get at least $75. 

Anyway, people still suck. It’s great when I can just listen to music or walk my dog and ignore that people exist. I love that! I did like talking to a few business owners on social media yesterday. Usually, I don’t get involved in conversations. 

I emailed animal control on my neighbors. Sorry for the abrupt transition. I’m rushing now. It’s a long story. I don’t like when their pitbull comes into my yard. I didn’t get my medicine two weeks ago because the pit bull was in or near my yard. MY MEDICINE. Some people don’t think that’s a big deal, but do you know how often mail is lost?? So they tried to deliver it right the first time and then have to do it a second time? WTF? 

Keep your damn dog in the house. They usually have him tied outback. According to my landlord, it’s illegal to have a dog (or any animal???) outside when it’s under 35 degrees. Unfortunately, it’s been under 35 at night for about 2 to 3 weeks. So what they do is bring him in and then let him loose about five times a day. I can’t make this up.

I’m not scared of him. He’s friendly. However, I don’t like that he defecates in the yard. I hate that shit. The point is this particular mail carrier (I think he’s new) doesn’t want to deliver mail when he sees a pit bull. 

It’s not just about mail. I was so scared FedEx wouldn’t deliver this laptop because of the dog. And next week, I have my groceries* coming on Tuesday at 9 AM. I do have a Blink camera. Walmart is known for coming early. So I will have to keep checking the camera, or maybe they have an app that will tell me? I have never had food delivered from Walmart before.

I did leave a note about ‘a loose dog’ I told the driver that if you see a loose dog, please call or text me and I will put a mask on and get my groceries. 

Another bad thing about a loose dog is that they could EAT your groceries. What a nightmare. This isn’t the greatest neighborhood, but I have left a package outside for an hour, and no one took it. One package was the Blink Camera. I may do a review of that later. 

*About the groceries. My fridge is empty. My dog ate one of my chicken thighs. He stole it from the bottom of the refrigerator. I could cook more thighs, but no, I’m gonna bitch about it. 

I can’t wait to get my food on Tuesday. I could have picked Monday, but I thought the store might be empty after the weekend. I guess I will have a better chance of getting my food if I choose later on in the week. I’m probably not going to make this a habit. My job is paying for some of the food. (Long story – Instead of giving us more money, they gave us a food card for healthy food only. I can only eat about 12 foods, so I can’t eat only healthy foods. I would die. But thanks!) 

Oh, and I might get fired soon. So I might not get the autism assessment in March. It’s not important enough for me to pay out of pocket. It’s not cheap. 

I might apply for another job by the end of the week. It’s at the same company I work at now. I’m only doing this because there would be no benefit disruption. Anyway, I hate this job, and I hate these people. Well, I like two people. I would probably like more if I knew them. They work from home in Florida. I didn’t hate the managers or supervisors for many years at this company. It all started when they forced me to go to a new department in 2020. 

Work is the main reason I’m so stressed out right now. I am only content when I’m walking my dog and most of the weekend. I was supposed to do overtime this weekend. It wasn’t mandatory. Whatever. I feel like everything I’m doing is a waste of time. They are paying me for now, so I will work until they fire me.

I was planning on leaving the company in 2023. I forgot what month makes sense, but I kind of need to stay there for over a year and a half. 

I will get unemployment for a little while if they fire me. I want disability because I am disabled. Try getting a job with social anxiety and call me back. Right now, I’m dealing with anxiety, depression, ADHD, and/or autism. Gastroparesis is not a significant issue right now. When I get stressed at work, I can’t eat. And sometimes, nausea comes back. But it’s not a real flare-up. 

It’s 12:30. We usually have lunch around 11:45 or noon. My dog will kill me or steal some nonexistent food from my fridge. So I have to go. 

I just took my dog outside. Guess who’s in the yard. The pit bull! URGH. Oops. It was the rottweiler. Not the pit bull. I never got a response from animal control, but I find it strange that a random guy starts bringing his rottweiler around when I’m outside the day after I email animal control. I take my dog outside around the same time every day. Anyway, I think it’s funny that my dog is considered the aggressive one out of a rottweiler and a pit bull. Btw, my dog is a corgi mix. I only say he is aggressive because he is the only dog barking and wanting to attack. LOL.

People suck. I love animals. Just don’t shit in my yard. 

This Week I…

Music of the week: Alanis Morissette, Ellie Goulding, Patty Griffin, Sara Bareilles, Kelly Clarkson, Tracy Chapman, Jewel, India.Arie

TV of the Week:  Amazing Race, Housewives, Vanderpump Rules

Podcasts of the Week: The Vanished, Crimelines, Generation Why, 

Books of the Week: I’m going to try to finish Dopamine Nation by Anna Lembke this week. It’s okay so far. I started a book by Stephen King. I can’t remember the name. It was okay, but I could tell I wouldn’t love it, so I gave up about 20% in. King’s book are so long. 

Goal for Next Week:  Sigh. I will commit to trying my best at work. But it is incredibly frustrating to work hard, and it is not good enough. I’m at the why bother stage. Trying hard and failing every day sucks.

I need to market my biz. I need to come up with my main service. I think I’m going to lower the price of my 6-month service. And I will not think of digital products for this week. I need to concentrate on one thing at a time.

As far as my book goes, I’m editing chapter 2. I will probably give that away free within two weeks and no more free chapters since I’ve decided to do the book in a personal essay format. I will offer free content, just not whole chapters. 

Oh, and I have to sell my Samsung Book Go on eBay. The weather is going to be okay for the next ten days, but I have to download the files I want. It’s not a lot. Then I guess I do a factory reset? I have never sold a laptop before. I’ll have to read about how to do that. First, I need packaging tape. I have no tape of any kind in this house. I would love to have the laptop sold before Feb. 1, but I have to list it on eBay first!

Weekend Plans: The weekend is almost over, and I have 800 things to do. So I won’t get overwhelmed, I will make my to-do list in my planner for the week. Unfortunately, I will still probably get overwhelmed. Too much. Too much. 

Thanks for reading! Have a great week.