Thank G-d I was rereading Wayne Dyer’s Your Sacred Self on Saturday. If I had not been, the day probably would have been a disaster.  Instead I was calm and forgivable. I understand that she is just acting this way due to her circumstances. I get that. But that doesn’t mean I’m not going to vent. 😉

She has no patience anymore. She’s irritable almost all the time. She is resentful. If I were living her life, I would probably be the same way or maybe worse! So I do get it. What this has taught me is to never be in that situation. Don’t give your life to someone else. That is just a recipe for misery and resentment. In most cases but not always, there is a better solution.

What if I thought in black and white? What if I didn’t understand that people just react to their circumstances?*  What if I just cast her off as a mean person? What if I thought this was who she really was? What if I judged her harshly instead? I’D BE GONE. That would be a huge loss to her because I do a lot for her.

I will admit that I do see less of her because she is almost always stressed out. And I don’t need that. I don’t want that. etc.

*I should say regular, non-enlightened everyday folk…like me!

I rarely reread books but Your Sacred Self used to be one of my bibles. I recently brought the Kindle version because I can’t find my print edition (and I was desperate for inspiration). That sucks because I had so many passages outlined in that book. Now I’m highlighting again as I go along so I can have the quotes on my Kindle. Btw, I brought the original from Barnes & Nobles so I won’t be able to buy it for a low price using Amazon’s matchbook service. I can’t wait for that to start. I check the site daily.

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This new manager thing is UGH! He sent me a cryptic email after I agreed to work OT tomorrow. I didn’t even want to work it but I just did it so maybe I could get a day off in November. Doing things for the wrong reason is always a bad idea. Anyway, I just want a day off in the future. This no time off thing is not working for me. Tomorrow is going to be a looooong day and I don’t even thinks he wants my help even though he asked for it. (???)

Frustrated.

I am also frustrated with the wheat free thing. I am doing wheat free and no processed foods. All of a sudden I’m sick of all the food I’ve been eating for the past 5 weeks. I need new breakfast options or I might quit. I don’t know. I will never eat bread again but I am questioning how bad wheat really is for me. I do believe the research but I might just ignore it. 😉

And I was thinking of doing a wheat free, sugar free cleanse. ROFL. Not happening.