If I were living with a SO, he/she would think I’m pissed off. I was pleasant and as friendly as I’ll ever be for the past week. But today the extreme introvert has taken over. I’m so tired. I want to sleep but I can’t for many reasons but the main one is HOUSE GUEST. I just want to come home to an empty house and do what I normally would do. I’ve crashed. I need my shell. As flawed as my shell is…I’m not talking.

Yeah, that is why I will never have a SO. Too much drama. I have enough going on without another human being in my face. That’s the spirit. Unless the person is a loner or extremely empathetic then he/she will think you are mad at them. I hate when people take your personality personally. Even I don’t do that. C’mon! I could give examples of how I thought someone was rude/mean to me and then I learned that is who they are SO I DON’T TAKE IT PERSONALLY. Apparently these rules, do not exist for loners. IT ISN’T ABOUT YOU.

Work was fine today. Rare statement. I tried not to get down even though I knew my hard work wouldn’t show because I’m working on a slow project. They have me doing it alone. That I do not understand. They could easily have one person doing the same thing I’m doing. Then I wouldn’t have to work on it every single day. I think they are doing it on purpose but it isn’t a sabotage even though sometimes I wonder. I also wonder if I’m being giving busy work (even though it has to be done) just to placate me. Last week I wondered why I was even there. I’m going to finish this shit so they have to give me something else.

Work was fine…only today. 🙂

I’m sick. So many different issues. I need to pick a doctor but my internet connection is crappy after all the rain we got so I’m going to call customer service and see if they will let me pick that way. I don’t like my choices but how am I supposed to know anyways??? (that’s what friends are for)….Maybe I should consider a male so I can have more options.

Going to bed early tonight…after doing homework.