Nurse on phone: Have you had a pap smear or mammogram?
Me: NO
Nurse: Have you had a mammogram?
Me: NO
Nurse: (baffled) Have you had a pap smear?
Me: NO
I’m only turning 30 on Sunday. Am I really supposed to have already had a mammogram? Seriously? I know the doctors or someone said recently to wait until 40 unless you have a history. That caused a storm. So I guess it is 30? wah. When I first heard about them I knew I wouldn’t do it until 40 and um, that plan is still intact. This is another reason NOT to go to a doctor. Will she force me to take a mammogram? ::sigh:: I know I can’t be forced. Anyway, I don’t even have a doctor. I’m picking one tonight. Because the nurse is going to call me back in 30 days and I want to at least have that done.
Do I have to have a pap smear? Is that checking for cervical cancer? (I’ll google it) later. OMG. No gynecologist. When I was younger (in my teens) I think I planned to see a gyn in my 30s. hmm, maybe not.
Now do you see why I will never PHYSICALLY have a kid??? Never. My breasts are too small and I don’t care if people says it doesn’t hurt. I don’t want it done to me. Should I value my life more? Maybe. But I am going to school this summer and doing “stuff”……I just don’t want to know if I have cancer. I’d rather die. It’s like the people who smoke and say they would rather die happy. Except there isn’t a happy but youknowwhatimean.
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I’m putting myself on a strict diet and budget cleanse. I don’t know if it is smart to do while traveling but I got some Skechers shape-ups! Not for exercise. It is the only way I think I’ll be able to walk in NYC. We will be walking EVERYWHERE. No buses or subways. If I were there for a week, I would figure out the subway system. :/ I’m anxious about this. I used to get pain in my feet all the time when I was younger. It probably started at 12 or so. Then two years ago, I went to DC…horrible pain. I almost could not make it. I probably had walked 3 miles when the pain started and then it continuously gets worse. I know I can walk a mile, probably two but after that my ankle joints (or whatever I have) goes nuts.
So I spent $100 on shape-ups. Guess who won’t be spending money in Manhattan? I ordered them and just got them after work. I’m leaving Sunday at 7AM. That is probably not enough time to wear in shape ups. Some people are lucky and they can wear them with no problems. I already feel my legs hurting. So my plan is to wear them Thursday – Saturday. That probably isn’t enough time but what else can I do? Plus I have a sedentary job, so it isn’t like I will be walking a lot at work but I do always take the stairs and I will walk during my lunch break etc.
I decided to risk it because people with flat feet and ankle pain gave it rave reviews. And I brought a half size up like most recommended. They fit and are comfortable but I haven’t really walked in them yet.
I’m only going on a diet/cleanse because I ate way too much today. I came home and watched “Slumdog Millionaire” and actually binged! Bad girl. I ate pizza…of all things. My digestive system doesn’t like pizza. So no more snacks or bad food. And plenty of walking. For some reason when I feel like I’m getting sick (a cold), I tend to eat a lot. As if that works on holding back the cold. It doesn’t! Cold-eeze works but I don’t have any.
I have to search for a doctor. The only requirements are close to home, female & taking new patients. I hope that is easy enough. I didn’t say I was going…………….