UGH! I’m not done…instead of unleashing my rage in my paper journal, I want to do it online. So I can tell people to fuck off.

Why am I really mad? follow–>if I didn’t have “issues”, I wouldn’t feel the need to go to work when people are gone. Bottom line, once again I feel like I’m being persecuted for my issues.Yes, my issues are mental and all my fault (<-sarcasm)

So that is why I’m really mad. It has nothing to do with well meaning snitches.  Or should I say “snitch”. I was going to work for me. NO SHIT. You think I want to spend my Sundays @ work for YOU??! Get over yourselves. ROFL. See, this is why it never occured to me that it was wrong. All of a sudden it’s like, “I’m doing extra free work for them.” WTF. Do you really think I would help your corporate ass??

And I don’t like when people sue over silly crap. So this makes it all the more absurd to me. I’ve always been “anti-lawsuit”. (Not in all cases, of course). I’m not the biggest fan of doctors but I think they get sued to much. And I wish there was a limit on these malpractice lawsuits. I see doctors as human. Occasionally they are going to make a mistake. Although suing a corporation, would give me a great a great advantage in life! Money doesn’t make you happy but it gives you choices…but I have a conscience.

This is what really got me: SHE SAID IT MAKES ME A LIABILITY.

Okay, now I want to sue your ass. I shouldn’t have listened to the well meaning good people. Oops. But I really didn’t know…I thought people would realize what they were doing was harassment/mean/bullying and stop doing it aloud. Whisper about me all you want. So I asked to move after a 3 hour meltdown by me. I held this in for over a year!

Maybe I should get a lawyer. LOL. But do I really want to be there?

I’m not going to forget the word LIABILITY. Never. Wrong word to use with me. That pissed me off (after I ‘got it’, when the conversation was done.

IF I’M SUCH A LIABILITY, FIRE MY ASS.

I’m also pissed about being getting a verbal warning for working off the clock. I’ve had a PRISTINE working record and now that is ruined because I was doing research. I was there because we had a new application and to me, it was obvious to come in learn more about it so I could be efficient. (Don’t you hate when companies switch to something that is more time consuming? Rarely happens but ick!) I learned what I needed on Sunday. Thank g-d it wasn’t more complicated.

So excuse me for coming in to work for free. It didn’t occur to me that it was against the law. (It is a huge LIABILITY against the law at my company because some DUMBASS sued because she loved to work so much that she did work ‘off the clock’. Then she talk to a friend who happened to be in law and sued, See this is the DUMB SHIT people sue over that makes me sick. I hope she’s rich. She was lonely and just working because she needed something to do after her daughter went away to college. And then she sued the company. And she won? How fucked up is this? What a…ugh! I find these lawsuits disgusting.) Of course I didn’t know this story prior to me working “for free”. And I don’t have friends…or friends in law.

I’ve said too much…but I feel better. Tolle relayed this great saying, “What  happens doesn’t matter”. If I live my life that way then I won’t get so mad or so attached. When I said that today I felt better but I still resent this whole thing. Tomorrow I’m going to have to really focus on the “whatever” part.I can’t control if they fire me at this point. However I will not say anything more…which I was already doing. I’m living in the “whatever”. Call me a psychopath? Whatever. Really what difference does it make?! I can’t control whether they fire me. Whatever.

Nothing is forever. Good or bad…

Btw, I probaly don’t have the Tolle quote exactly right but people @ work will probably see this quote around my desk and google it…don’t want it coming back to my blog. And Tolle didn’t say it, a teacher said it at a conference.