Today started out so well. Well not really…but compared to how my life has been the past few months, I was determined to have a good day. Yet I cried at my desk and I didn’t have my hair down to cover my hair. See I thought it would be such a good day, that I could wear my hair back and not worry about people seeing me. bleh.

I am emotional. A feeler. I need to manage my emotions. Don’t feel. Just think. I am logical when I do think. lol. At least I think so. 🙂 And then my anxiety gets to me. I need an answer. I need reassurance. You’ve had a very important email (meaning it’s a time issue) and you haven’t repsonded. OMG!!1! You don’t care. You know I’m going to be fired. You think I’m a hassle. etc.

Damn. Oh well. Well today is Friday and I’m going to have to live with this all weekend. I hate that. I will be okay…even if my ‘trainer’ hates me. fuck. this sucks, okay???? The good thing is that I’m off for 3 days next week. My goal is not to have any questions. But I refuse to do my work wrong just so I can pretend to have all the answers. I’m hoping that I won’t run into any hard stuff over the next two work days.

I’m not at home. I’m so glad. I won’t get into why. I need to get my grocery list ready, do laundry etc. I just had to vent.