I’m a night owl. No matter how tired I am, around 10:30PM I start moving around as if I’ve had 10 cups of coffee. However, my brain is not working so this won’t be much of an entry.

The ‘old’ friend from high school aka facebook friend responded again. I know if I look at the response I will obsess over what to say tonight instead of focusing on the Lakers game going to sleep. I probably will tell my therapist about her. I’m scared she may force a meeting. I did initiate the idea of a meeting. Sorta. I left it up to her to follow up if she wanted to. Right now that is in the air. If I read facebook friend’s message I would probably know what’s up. 🙂

Anyhow, I am thinking about going into my mistrust of new people. I just don’t trust people I don’t know. I don’t trust that they will be honest. Will they tell others what I say to them? I don’t want friends at work because I’m paranoid. YES PARANOID. But they also think I’m crazy so why should I try to be friends with them. It is hard with the whole crazy stigma.

I officially hate the use of the word “crazy”, btw. It is used as a put down when a person doesn’t act normal. Does anyone even know what crazy is? It is too general for me. It’s like a lazy term people use when they don’t care enough to really find out what is going on. Hate it.

Well I have to get to bed and listen to the NBA game as I drift off to sleep……